A.D.H.D (ACTIONS DONE WITH HIGH DISREGARD)
A.D.H.D (ACTIONS DONE WITH HIGH DISREGARD)
I stare on the phone then back on my TV
screen hoping for a feedback to be
But is it worth it or a must need?
To speak to you again, that would make me calm
indeed,
The space in this room is quite wide but my
patience is thin I really want to know what's happening within to make you not
to talk to me, when did this shell suddenly come to be , please oh please let
me in,
I'm worried about you, but you don't like it
when I intervene, true I understand you enjoy your space that's not being mean
but when you turn your head I start thinking deep within, that maybe it's not
you it's just me and me ,what is that that really needs to be understood and seen?
Aside from this I'm worried what's to come to
be, career and social life hasn't been quite a cup of tea, but I'd rather push
on and see what I'll be even though it drains most of my energy but that's how
life is , like a cup of tea, is it what it is without the heat?
Sometimes I enquire, do I really need this? My
mental part hardly stable that's one point that gives me defeat, am I fine or
just need to be free but help is what I really seek, because for sure friends
can't handle the heat, everyone has their own problems they don't need more to
eat
is it problematic when it sounds obsolete? I
think not because yours was suddenly "legit" double standards is a dish
you like to eat, you want to be heard but not to hear and sit, you got anger
issues and very much naive, with all that delusion do you still know what
happiness means? Drew the line when the gas was lit, never thought you'd use
that on me ,but truth to be you did what you did just don't expect the same
energy before from me,
Yes I respect you oh creator of me you and your
spouse, did well for me but the problem is the Alpha side of thee. Have you ever
taken time to know your own blood? yes I'm talking about me, lots of secrets you
kept from me might not be the case but that's fine with me, I found out later
about the he ,he and she hurtful part is it didn't come from him but the one
who has always tried to make things less awkward with us between,
But it's funny how life can take a drift, with
the bonds you thoroughly formed and thought you'll need ,for sure your energy
is pure but not clean and very much valuable to narcs and bins but do I need to
show you how much you've thinned, from your old habits of compromise and seeing
the good side of it, when really it's just a mess and a bowl of shit!
If I was a mind reader, would things probably be
neat? I think I'd run from everybody I meet, because a perfect world will never
really exist, chaos and order must really coexist that's the balance of life,
enough with the zodiacs and the stars ideology that's really been fixed, the
most important is the yin and Yang, simple as this....
I should stop expecting a lot from a human
being, they'll always disappoint it's a nature of being, I know I would,
disappoint a being but to understand and leave is the best thing I can give
I wonder why do they always come to me for
therapy when I myself surely needed me but that's all they wanted none of that
bullshit that's troubling me, you hype your other friends but left me beneath
it's not the bullshit that you keep on telling me, you are loving the kind of
person you are turning out to be well that's good but at least I know my place
and where to be
Honestly, this is just wonderful 👏
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